Now I am Found…

Now I am Found... by Fedora

Now I am found. Found in what. What has found me. I have found patience, faith, and determination in love. This is not my first time loving a man. But it is my first time deciding to stand and make this love work in our lives. Myles Munroe said that “love is not the foundation of marriage, you need knowledge and understanding.” The love comes easy. Often quickly but love alone cannot sustain the relationship.

This time I allowing to slow me down in the building of this love and commitment. I have learned that there are many forces opposed to love. Things or people destined to destroy the love relationship are in abundance. But finding support in successfully standing in your love relationship are scarce.

Recently I have seen several love relationships meltdown right in front of me. They shared common denominators, anger, pain, confusion, and ignorance. Yes, ignorance. People do not know how to understand each other enough to really love and support the person not their feelings.

Patience, willing spirit, and listening will tell you all you need to know. Even what’s wrong. Sometimes we turn a deaf ear to what’s wrong. This keeps us waiting longer because we cannot build with another when we are not whole ourselves. I know this because I lived this.

I told you that last time. I am confidently lost. I know who I am and I am confidently stumbling through my new path with a smile on my face and love in my heart. I am a whole woman who loves a broken man. He desires wholeness and is currently seeking it but it requires patience and understanding on my part.

Obtaining wholeness takes sacrifice, time, and perseverance. To become whole you first must sacrifice what you believe to be true and face your real truth. Acknowledge your shortcomings, face those painful moments, and who you have allowed yourself to become as a result of the pain. Then allow yourself time to heal. Healing means dealing with the pain. No more running. Let the tears fall. Say what you need to say. Then stand your ground on your new path. Don’t allow others to steal your newfound joy and love.

I am now in my period of standing. God has amazed me this year. Everywhere I turn He is there showing me how well I am loved. Abundance and favor has reigned on me since the new year began. I eagerly anticipate what the rest of this year will produce. I have taken ownership of my life and my path. I know what I deserve and will not accept anything less than that in any area of my life.

Everything happens when it’s supposed to happen. I am living that in my life right now, as I watch things that were promised years ago manifest before my eyes with no delay. It is amazing, scary, and fulfilling at the same time. But there is no other place I would rather be.


Patiently by JSMN

I’m too numb to feel pain
I’m too grown to play this game
How’d I get here?
You’re too young to fall in love (fall in love)
Too dumb to give up
How’d we get here?

I can see it in your distant eyes
The things you tell yourself is lies
I swear you wanna compromise
But then again what do I know?

You tell me I should take my time
That we should both go live our lives
See I don’t wanna cross no lines
But there’s just one thing you should know

And it’s alright if you are, you can stay (hey)
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently

Through sunshine and rain
Cigarettes and shame
Somehow I got here
You tell me enough’s enough
Then you’re gone again and hit me up
Tell me what’s going on hereJust drink a little more red wine
Come on baby let’s unwind
We can watch another sunrise
But then again, what do I know?

See I don’t wanna change my mind (change my mind)
And I don’t want to leave you behind (leave you behind)
Never wanna compromise
But there’s just one thing you should know
That it’s alright if you want, I can stay
No, I can stay (yeah)

Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently
I said patiently
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait, yeah
I’ll wait patient

Wherever you go

Wherever you go
That’s where I am
Watching you be
The quality man
Who intrigues me
With his swagger
With his mind
With his ways

He moves in ways
She doesn’t know
Scary at times
But never forgotten
Never dissatisfied
Just being his

I go where our hearts
Lead us
Discovering the
Next phase of US

Igniting the fire of Love to heal thy heart.

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