Let me know
Do I still got time to grow?
Things ain’t always set in stone
That be known let me know
Seems like street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
All the street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
In these streets
In these streets
I’m just not there in these streets
I’m just not there
Life just ain’t fair
Seems like street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, but I’m just not there
All the street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
In these streets
In these streets
I’m just not there in these streets
I’m just not there
Life just ain’t fair
The good Lord gives
The good Lord taketh away
That’s how it goes
I don’t know what else to say
The good Lord gives
The good Lord taketh away
That’s how it goes
Don’t live your life in vain
Writer(s): Ashton Simmonds, Matthew Burnett, Jordan Evans, Ian Culley
I’m too numb to feel pain
I’m too grown to play this game
How’d I get here?
You’re too young to fall in love (fall in love) Too dumb to give up
How’d we get here?
I can see it in your distant eyes
The things you tell yourself is lies
I swear you wanna compromise
But then again what do I know?
You tell me I should take my time
That we should both go live our lives
See I don’t wanna cross no lines
But there’s just one thing you should know
And it’s alright if you are, you can stay (hey)
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently
Through sunshine and rain
Cigarettes and shame
Somehow I got here
You tell me enough’s enough
Then you’re gone again and hit me up
Tell me what’s going on hereJust drink a little more red wine
Come on baby let’s unwind
We can watch another sunrise
But then again, what do I know?
See I don’t wanna change my mind (change my mind)
And I don’t want to leave you behind (leave you behind)
Never wanna compromise
But there’s just one thing you should know
That it’s alright if you want, I can stay
No, I can stay (yeah)
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently
Patiently
I said patiently
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait, yeah
I’ll wait patient
I have been introduced to another soul that speaks to my heart. Sabrina Claudio’s soulful ballads are uplifting. Her words in “Confidently Lost” resonates deep within me. How can one be confidently lost? I am confidently lost because I am on a road I have never traveled. At times I find myself wandering when I encounter new parts of the journey.
But I am confident about my path and my purpose. I am purposely leaving some things, people, ways, habits, mindsets, and beliefs behind me. As I look back on this year I see ups and downs, lots of emotional pain, more than most could probably bare because I was forced to face some truth. Truth about myself and how lost I have been most of my life. Running around in circles never finding an end.
But I have finally stopped running! I am standing here facing an uncertain future as I walk out this new journey in 2018. It’s a little scary because I am vulnerable. I have finally opened my heart to love. It’s great and I don’t know what to expect. Which is good because I can be surprised at what it will bring into my path. Expectations can ruin things sometimes. So I am open to where the love leads us.
She says in her song “I am confidently lost, I don’t need you to find me, I don’t need you to define me.” For the first time in my adult life I no longer need a man to define me because I know who I am as a woman and his woman. I am a mature woman who feels 15 years younger than she is. I am invigorated by life, all of it, even the shit that hurts. The pain shapes us and forces us to stand tall. Fortitude! Which is what it should do. But I won’t allow it to cut off my heart from giving and receiving love.
I desire love in all areas of my life. I don’t want to dwell around people who cannot love life, themselves, and others. The negativity is life draining. So as she says in her song-“Thinking about where I am from If I belong there“- speaks to my decision to separate myself from the negativity.
Although my path is unknown, I wouldn’t change it for anything. I am confident that I am not going back to anything I left in 2017. Goodbye heartache, negativity, jealousy, abuse, poverty, homelessness, fake friends, fake family, lies, deceit, selfishness, lack, loneliness, rejection, bondage, barriers, jobs with no purpose, people with no purpose, booty calls, and hiding.
I love you for supporting me over the last few years. This blog has been an evolution and transformation for me. There are bigger things coming from Fedora!!
I have discovered another loving soul Marcell Russell and want to share him with you. He’s spiritual and has such a depth that I haven’t seen since Luther.
Everybody gets lost sometimes, gets off the right path and ends up regretting some decisions. But how did I get here, in this place, in this existence, looking at this person. Who is he? Where did he come from? Why don’t I recognize him? He’s wearing a mask. What’s behind his?
Mr. Serious
Always ready to say what’s on his mind
Never satisfied to stay behind
Mr. Mysterious
Casting his shadows on all the he sees
Never allowing them inside
Mr. Cool
Ready for whatever goes down
Always keeping his head up around town
Mr. Looking
For the women to fill his heart
Seeking her touch on all his parts
Daddy, Lover, My Man
This is him
Serious, mysterious
Cool and
Looking for you
Coming into his world to
Make things right
