[Verse 1]
So many times I tried to run away
I couldn’t find rest cause there was no hiding place
And I heard a voice come up from deep within, say
This is who I am
I no longer can pretend
[Chorus]
And I was created for this (created for this)
Oh, I was created for this (created for this)
And I, yeah (created for this)
I was created for this (created for this)
[Verse 2]
So different I know that I don’t feel it
But I’m chosen and I believe that’s what it is
He gave me a song for me to tell the story
And my life’s poured out only for your glory (glory, yeah)
[Chorus]
I was created for this (created for this)
Ooh, I was created for this (created for this)
I was created for this (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,)
I was created for this (yeah)
[Verse 3]
I am persuaded
I’m gonna be all that you created me to be (be all)
I’m down in my mind, but least I’m here (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’m gonna help someone along the way
Yeah, hey
[Chorus]
Created for this
I was created for this
I was created for this
Ooh(da da da da da)
I was created for this
I was created
Sometimes we go through storms of transition. Many believe that the path of love will be a cloud walk. Lost in the love of your beloved and everything will magically work out. This is so untrue. Love takes work, patience, endurance, and forgiveness.
Transitions are not easy. During transitions you experience a tearing away of the old and the opening of a new unfamiliar path. This path is often empty as you have never traveled it before. then the fear bombards you as you realize you have no control over this at all. I am merely a piece of clay in the master’s hand. He is shaping me into what he wants through this path. How do I navigate this path of love successfully?
We have been on our love journey now for three years. We have overcome so many obstacles. We have broken up several times. But our souls yearn for each other and always find their way back to each other. We both attempted to leave each other again over the past month. I started it and then he did it. But this time I said NO! We are only going to come right back. This is another one of those hurdles, those fearful moments when the reality of love overwhelms the heart.
I also realized that I will love him as long as I live. Some soul ties never die. I also learned the reason why we always come back is because we exchange an energy between us that gives us life. We commune with each other on a spiritual level when we make love. We literally give ourselves to the other. We live inside each other.
But even after the many obstacles I stand today and say it is all worth it! He is worth it! We are worth it! He is a quality man with the purest heart. I will allow love to flow between us, through us, inside us, and from us. I love you handsome!!
As you face a new path, a transition in life, remember it is only a temporary change in your path. It is not how it will stay.
Let me know
Do I still got time to grow?
Things ain’t always set in stone
That be known let me know
Seems like street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
All the street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
In these streets
In these streets
I’m just not there in these streets
I’m just not there
Life just ain’t fair
Seems like street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, but I’m just not there
All the street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I’m just not there
In these streets
In these streets
I’m just not there in these streets
I’m just not there
Life just ain’t fair
The good Lord gives
The good Lord taketh away
That’s how it goes
I don’t know what else to say
The good Lord gives
The good Lord taketh away
That’s how it goes
Don’t live your life in vain
Writer(s): Ashton Simmonds, Matthew Burnett, Jordan Evans, Ian Culley
I’m too numb to feel pain
I’m too grown to play this game
How’d I get here?
You’re too young to fall in love (fall in love) Too dumb to give up
How’d we get here?
I can see it in your distant eyes
The things you tell yourself is lies
I swear you wanna compromise
But then again what do I know?
You tell me I should take my time
That we should both go live our lives
See I don’t wanna cross no lines
But there’s just one thing you should know
And it’s alright if you are, you can stay (hey)
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently
Through sunshine and rain
Cigarettes and shame
Somehow I got here
You tell me enough’s enough
Then you’re gone again and hit me up
Tell me what’s going on hereJust drink a little more red wine
Come on baby let’s unwind
We can watch another sunrise
But then again, what do I know?
See I don’t wanna change my mind (change my mind)
And I don’t want to leave you behind (leave you behind)
Never wanna compromise
But there’s just one thing you should know
That it’s alright if you want, I can stay
No, I can stay (yeah)
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait
I’ll wait patiently
Patiently
I said patiently
Take your time ’cause you know that I’ll wait, yeah
I’ll wait patient
I have been introduced to another soul that speaks to my heart. Sabrina Claudio’s soulful ballads are uplifting. Her words in “Confidently Lost” resonates deep within me. How can one be confidently lost? I am confidently lost because I am on a road I have never traveled. At times I find myself wandering when I encounter new parts of the journey.
But I am confident about my path and my purpose. I am purposely leaving some things, people, ways, habits, mindsets, and beliefs behind me. As I look back on this year I see ups and downs, lots of emotional pain, more than most could probably bare because I was forced to face some truth. Truth about myself and how lost I have been most of my life. Running around in circles never finding an end.
But I have finally stopped running! I am standing here facing an uncertain future as I walk out this new journey in 2018. It’s a little scary because I am vulnerable. I have finally opened my heart to love. It’s great and I don’t know what to expect. Which is good because I can be surprised at what it will bring into my path. Expectations can ruin things sometimes. So I am open to where the love leads us.
She says in her song “I am confidently lost, I don’t need you to find me, I don’t need you to define me.” For the first time in my adult life I no longer need a man to define me because I know who I am as a woman and his woman. I am a mature woman who feels 15 years younger than she is. I am invigorated by life, all of it, even the shit that hurts. The pain shapes us and forces us to stand tall. Fortitude! Which is what it should do. But I won’t allow it to cut off my heart from giving and receiving love.
I desire love in all areas of my life. I don’t want to dwell around people who cannot love life, themselves, and others. The negativity is life draining. So as she says in her song-“Thinking about where I am from If I belong there“- speaks to my decision to separate myself from the negativity.
Although my path is unknown, I wouldn’t change it for anything. I am confident that I am not going back to anything I left in 2017. Goodbye heartache, negativity, jealousy, abuse, poverty, homelessness, fake friends, fake family, lies, deceit, selfishness, lack, loneliness, rejection, bondage, barriers, jobs with no purpose, people with no purpose, booty calls, and hiding.
I love you for supporting me over the last few years. This blog has been an evolution and transformation for me. There are bigger things coming from Fedora!!
