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Afraid by Xavier Omar

Losing love, unrequited
Was it truly love? undecided
Hard times, I’m broken
Past lies, they leave you open
I try, I’m hopeless
At night, no way of coping
With this shredded heart
Can I get reparations for the pain?
Baby I’m afraid
Really I’m afraid

Of giving you what they all messed up
My stress up
Took them pictures and I dressed up
Looking blessed up
You need something and I got you
I spot you
Til i see your love is not true
It’s not true
And I’m scared of what that feels like
Looking stupid out in real life
Baby I’m Afraid
Really I’m Afraid

[Chorus]
Of loving you
(I’m so afraid to love you)
With all my heart, my time
(I’m so afraid of hurting again)
Baby I’m afraid
(I’m so afraid to love you)
Really I’m afraid
(I’m so afraid of hurting again)

[Verse 2]

God has not given us the spirit of fear
But the spirit of love looking like it’s not here
I don’t doubt your heart, I just know things change
It just leads to pain, I still bleed the same

I still say I’m fine, but I leave my brain
Dont’ wanna think no more, I can’t defeat my shame
Don’t wanna play no more, I can’t defeat this game
But that phone still rings, can’t delete your name

‘cuz you give to me
Everything I pray for, every single day for
Listen to me, honestly
You don’t have to wait for me to feel I’m safe or
That I’m ready this time
I want no one else, not “too” focused on myself
It’s just baby I’m afraid
Really I’m afraid

[Chorus]
Of loving you
(I’m so afraid to love you)
With all my heart, my time
(I’m so afraid of hurting again)
Baby I’m afraid
(I’m so afraid to love you)
Really I’m afraid
(I’m so afraid of hurting again)

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Naked by Ella Mai

Take away the big shirts, the tattoos, the sweatpants and Vans
Okay, I don’t wear no makeup, no purse in my hands
My resting bitch face is mistaking for the mean girl
But what if I told you
There’s nothing I want more in this world
Than somebody who loves me naked
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it
Are you that somebody
Who sees a wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked?
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Oh oh oh yeah, yeah
Might be a bitch in the morning so catch me at night time
Some of my friends think I’m moody but I think I’m just fine
I could be pissed but I act like I’m not
I really remember when I say I forgot
No matter how hard I try
To run away from love at the end of the night
I need somebody who loves me naked
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it
Are you that somebody
Who sees a wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
I need someone who loves me when I wake up
Who thinks I’m beautiful when I’m looking fucked up
I want the perfect love, am I asking too much
Someone who shoots for the stars
Knowing I think I’m never good enough
I need somebody who loves me naked (Who loves me naked)
Someone who never asks for love
But knows how to take it (Knows how to take it)
Are you that somebody
Who sees a wall and breaks it
Are you ready to fight just to see what’s lost behind my flaws
Can you love me naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Naked
Songwriters: Ella Mai / Dijon McFarlane / Samuel Jean / Dimi Sloane Sesson / Giscard Friedman / Andrew Graziuso / Omer Fedi
Naked lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Fresh Dew

The sun came out today
Why was my life so
Gloomy
All because of choices made
When we never intended to stay

The crater was filled
I no longer seek another’s
Part
To make me feel whole
Cause my heart is finally healed

Freedom is new for me
Splashing a fresh dew
Upon
My face giving me the
Power to live effortlessly

Things are not the same
I finally know how to be
Content
Basking in all His glory
Resting for the remainder of days

The Phenomenal Booty Call

It’s official. He’s crazy. An old lover came back apologizing for treating me bad, which he did. I recognized an opportunity so I decided to allow him back into my life after a brief hiatus. Daddy told me to always make sure I got what I wanted in any relationship with a man. If you are reading this Daddy, you would be proud of your Goddess.

Do you know he came back with the same game. No difference at all. When I called him on it all he could do was laugh. Lovers to say how embarrassed I was for him is being nice. I am not ashamed to admit that I got hooked up with the wrong man. But there was definitely something in it for me.

He was charming, handsome and the sex was phenomenal. But I know all too well that you can not build anything based on sex. So this time I took my time to see where he was leading.

When he first came back he was very attentive. He did and said all the right things. But it only lasted as long as it took for him to get what he wanted. Me in his bed. Well I was not mad when I left him that night. But he expected that I was going to stay with him, cuddle like we used to. Wrong!!!

Did he really think I hadn’t learned from him before. I had an agenda as well. I wanted sex from him just as much. So I equally used him. I never had any intention on staying. He gave me just what I wanted.

So I pull back and really start pushing him for more time, all the while knowing he can’t fulfill any of it. I am waiting to see how long before the shit hits the fan and he’s had enough.

It did not take long before he was already wanting to get out. Only the fool did not realize that he was being played the whole time. I never had any intention of resuming a relationship with him. Because I already knew the truth.

He is not quite mature enough for a real relationship with me. I knew that when I left him six months ago. This time I watched him. He was uncomfortable, didn’t know his place. He could not figure out where I was because I had changed.

I didn’t bring any bad to him only peace. He told me that I was his peace. But he brought me strife, lies, and chaos. The sad thing here is that he really does love me. But he has no clue what to do about it.

It takes a strong, confident man to love and guide me. That he is not because he still has much growing to do.

I saw him in a picture with his new woman and realized for the first time he really is not all I thought he was. She didn’t really get anything. I made the right call following my spirit six months ago and letting him go.

So today I continue that path as I say goodbye to him for the last time. I will not open this door again not even for the phenomenal booty call. Although I will always love him, I am thankful for my freedom.