The sun came out today
Why was my life so
Gloomy
All because of choices made
When we never intended to stay
The crater was filled
I no longer seek another’s
Part
To make me feel whole
Cause my heart is finally healed
Freedom is new for me
Splashing a fresh dew
Upon
My face giving me the
Power to live effortlessly
Things are not the same
I finally know how to be
Content
Basking in all His glory
Resting for the remainder of days
It’s official. He’s crazy. An old lover came back apologizing for treating me bad, which he did. I recognized an opportunity so I decided to allow him back into my life after a brief hiatus. Daddy told me to always make sure I got what I wanted in any relationship with a man. If you are reading this Daddy, you would be proud of your Goddess.
Do you know he came back with the same game. No difference at all. When I called him on it all he could do was laugh. Lovers to say how embarrassed I was for him is being nice. I am not ashamed to admit that I got hooked up with the wrong man. But there was definitely something in it for me.
He was charming, handsome and the sex was phenomenal. But I know all too well that you can not build anything based on sex. So this time I took my time to see where he was leading.
When he first came back he was very attentive. He did and said all the right things. But it only lasted as long as it took for him to get what he wanted. Me in his bed. Well I was not mad when I left him that night. But he expected that I was going to stay with him, cuddle like we used to. Wrong!!!
Did he really think I hadn’t learned from him before. I had an agenda as well. I wanted sex from him just as much. So I equally used him. I never had any intention on staying. He gave me just what I wanted.
So I pull back and really start pushing him for more time, all the while knowing he can’t fulfill any of it. I am waiting to see how long before the shit hits the fan and he’s had enough.
It did not take long before he was already wanting to get out. Only the fool did not realize that he was being played the whole time. I never had any intention of resuming a relationship with him. Because I already knew the truth.
He is not quite mature enough for a real relationship with me. I knew that when I left him six months ago. This time I watched him. He was uncomfortable, didn’t know his place. He could not figure out where I was because I had changed.
I didn’t bring any bad to him only peace. He told me that I was his peace. But he brought me strife, lies, and chaos. The sad thing here is that he really does love me. But he has no clue what to do about it.
It takes a strong, confident man to love and guide me. That he is not because he still has much growing to do.
I saw him in a picture with his new woman and realized for the first time he really is not all I thought he was. She didn’t really get anything. I made the right call following my spirit six months ago and letting him go.
So today I continue that path as I say goodbye to him for the last time. I will not open this door again not even for the phenomenal booty call. Although I will always love him, I am thankful for my freedom.
Lovers,
I have discovered another loving soul Marcell Russell and want to share him with you. He’s spiritual and has such a depth that I haven’t seen since Luther.
Enjoy….
Lovers,
I am in love with this creative soul. His work comes from deep within his being. A man who feels all of life. Beautiful music and lyrics that you find yourself inside .
Enjoy!
Fedora loves you. Peace
