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A Letter to My Heart

Dear Heart,

How are you? I know I keep you at a distance but I feel you often. You know it’s difficult for me to open that door. It only stays open but a short moment at a time. That’s about all I can handle. My Heart was not built to withstand the vulnerabilities of love. At least that’s what they kept trying to tell me. You know the advisors that are always whispering into your ear. Trying to convince you that your Heart is misleading you and it can’t be trusted.

Yes, that is what they have said. But I don’t believe them anymore. See I have watched you over the past year and I see something different inside you. You are moving a little quicker, pumping just a little harder, working very hard to build momentum. You are loving again! It looks good on you. Your color has changed and you smile more.

But heart my dear, I don’t want to be rescued because it indicates that I am weak, a victim needing assistance. I would much rather be redeemed. Being redeemed indicates that he is investing in my worth. But how will she be redeemed when she doesn’t know her worth? When she settles for far less than her father ever sought for his princess.

Yes dear, I learned that you must love self-first, good or indifferent. You must love yourself. You should be able to look at yourself in the mirror and love all of you. Say to yourself in your current state. “I love you despite what you have done, you are worthy of so much more!”

Love who you are as you strive to live on purpose. Love the journey and grow, alone first. You must know yourself intimately before you allow another to know you that way. My dear heart this is how you guard yourself. Stay focused on your destiny and keep growing. Keep loving openly and honestly it will make you thrive. Love yourself dear heart, on purpose!

Fedora loves you.

Peace

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Let Love Rain

You want me to hate you
Because you hate yourself
You purposely hurt me
Just to hurt yourself

Why won’t you
Receive the love
You so desperately crave
Instead of throwing it away

Our hearts know
How we love
Just like we are
In heaven above

We were born
For this moment
Of bliss
Our love twisted
Around so much
Always a sweet kiss

Love more
No more pain
Let’s settle in and
Let love rain

Location (Remix) by Khalid ft. Lil Wayne and Kehlani

[Lil Wayne:]
Remix, baby, yeah

I meet you at the spot, send the location
I don’t do this a lot, special occasion
I know you ain’t a thottie, you ain’t no basic
I turn your dry spot to an oasis
I kiss the right spots, I know all the places
Oh I lick the right spots, that’s an ultimatum
The loud in rotation, cloud 9, floatation
Let the rose petals spread like rotation
I know your ex to blame for your cold nature
Tell him stay in his lane, stop the road ragin’
And now I got you in here makin’ those faces
Runnin’ ’round the bedroom like four bases, moolah!

[Khalid:]
Send me your location, let’s
Focus on communicating
‘Cause I just need the time and place to come through (place to come through)
Send me your location
Let’s ride the vibrations
I don’t need nothing else but you

At times I wonder why I fool with you
But this is new to me, this is new to you
Initially, I didn’t wanna fall for you
Gather my attention it was all for you, so don’t
Take advantage, don’t leave my heart damaged
To understand that things go a little bit better when you plan it… oh
So won’t you

Send me your location, let’s
Focus on communicating
‘Cause I just need the time and place to come through
Send me your location
Let’s ride the vibrations
I don’t need nothing else but you

[Kehlani:]
Drop me a pin, let’s fall
Way deeper into whatever we’re callin’ it
Whatever we’re fallin’ into
‘Cause I don’t really care about rules
I don’t really care about rules
I just really care about you
I’m enjoyin’ starin’ into
Your eyes when I’m all in it with you
They can choose to watch, but I’d rather they just listen
Could fill up an album with everything that they’re missin’
They so superficial, don’t understand how we’re chillin’
We don’t need a lot, we got us and that’s why we’re winnin’
To them it’s a park bench, us a magic carpet
Little trips to Target turn to avant garde shit
I promise, we got this, we got this
Baby just send me your

[Khalid {Kehlani}:]
Send me your location, let’s
Focus on communicating
‘Cause I just need the time and place to come through (place to come through)
{Time and place to come through}
Send me your location
Let’s ride the vibrations
I don’t need nothing else but you
{Nothing else, but you}

[Khalid {Kehlani}:]
Ride, ride, ride, come and vibe with me tonight
{Ride, ride}
I don’t need nothing else but you
(I don’t need nothing else but you)
Ride, ride, ride, come and vibe with me tonight
{Ride, ride… tonight}
I don’t need nothing else but you
{But you, but you}
Nothing else but you
{But you}
[Lil Wayne:] Remix, baby
[Khalid {Kehlani}:]
Do, do, do, do, do, do
{Do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do}
Oh, oh, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, mmm, mmm, mmm
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
{Do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do}
I don’t need nothing else but you

Writer(s): Khalid Robinson, Joshua Scruggs, Samuel Jiminez, Olatunji Ige, Alfredo Gonzalez, Bajram Kurti

Starting New

Recently God  broke some things up in my life. It was good though because I grew from the experiences. I closed some doors that should’ve been closed years ago. It was refreshing and empowering.

Did I tell you that I am afraid of love? Yes, I have been for most of my adulthood. I have been hurt a lot and decided it was safer not to trust my heart to a man. I am saddened by the number of men in this world who do not value women. The ones who are hurt and unloved use women as sex toys, bed warmers, friends with benefits etc. Whatever term you use to describe how they steal our virtue with no intentions of giving anything back to us. They use us, our bodies, and our benefits leaving us empty and depleted.

When I realized this pattern in my life, I took steps to take myself out of this cycle. I cannot fix the men but I can allow God to help me fix myself. First, I stopped giving away my virtue. I became celibate. I began to recognize the men who only wanted to use me and stayed away from them. I also paid attention to find out why some of them did it. (That’s another post, I promise)

 

I wrote a poem a few years ago about how men have wanted me but never cherished me just because they love me. I was presented with this love I have never known before. Guess what I almost ran away. Yeah, I know. Chicken. I finally meet a man who loves me the woman not just my body. He calls me beautiful each time I am in his presence. As he kisses me, his eyes show how much he feels for me.

This is refreshing but do you know what the most empowering experience was for me  recently? Looking at myself and falling in love with myself again. I love this woman! I love her more than he does.

I want to encourage all people not just women to understand the importance of loving yourself. You have to be able to embrace the good and bad things about yourself. As you allow God to show you the less than perfect you. Open your heart and also allow him to show you how to heal in that area so that you can be the best person you can.

Remember that perfection is not attainable but if we chase perfection we will catch excellence. You may never be perfect but you will excel as you travel the path to purpose and you will purposely give the best parts of yourself to others.