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Oh How I Love You by Zacardi Cortez

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I Once Was Lost…

Lovers,

I have been introduced to another soul that speaks to my heart. Sabrina Claudio’s soulful ballads are uplifting. Her words in “Confidently Lost” resonates deep within me. How can one be confidently lost? I am confidently lost because I am on a road I have never traveled. At times I find myself wandering when I encounter new parts of the journey.

But I am confident about my path and my purpose. I am purposely leaving some things, people, ways, habits, mindsets, and beliefs behind me. As I look back on this year I see ups and downs, lots of emotional pain, more than most could probably bare because I was forced to face some truth. Truth about myself and how lost I have been most of my life. Running around in circles never finding an end.

But I have finally stopped running! I am standing here facing an uncertain future as I walk out this new journey in 2018. It’s a little scary because I am vulnerable. I have finally opened my heart to love. It’s great and I don’t know what to expect. Which is good because I can be surprised at what it will bring into my path. Expectations can ruin things sometimes. So I am open to where the love leads us.

She says in her song “I am confidently lost, I don’t need you to find me, I don’t need you to define me.” For the first time in my adult life I no longer need a man to define me because I know who I am as a woman and his woman. I am a mature woman who feels 15 years younger than she is. I am invigorated by life, all of it, even the shit that hurts. The pain shapes us and forces us to stand tall. Fortitude!  Which is what it should do. But I won’t allow it to cut off my heart from giving and receiving love.

I desire love in all areas of my life. I don’t want to dwell around people who cannot love life, themselves, and others. The negativity is life draining. So as she says in her song-“Thinking about where I am from If I belong there“- speaks to my decision to separate myself from the negativity.

Although my path is unknown, I wouldn’t change it for anything. I am confident that I am not going back to anything I left in 2017. Goodbye heartache, negativity, jealousy, abuse, poverty, homelessness, fake friends, fake family, lies, deceit, selfishness, lack, loneliness, rejection, bondage, barriers, jobs with no purpose, people with no purpose, booty calls, and hiding.

I love you for supporting me over the last few years. This blog has been an evolution and transformation for me. There are bigger things coming from Fedora!!

Fedora Loves You! Peace

Fedora Loves You. Fedora Loves Poetry

Forever by The Floacist featuring Musiq Soulchild

Lovers,

I am so happy to see The Floacist still doing her thing. I am the biggest Floetry fan. I bet you can guess why. Their style combined my love of music and poetry together. Priceless!!!

Enjoy!


Hey
How are you doing,
Love?

Some don’t understand
How could they understand?
They don’t believe in love so
Why would they believe in us?

When everything changed
I had you
When my life was rearranged
I had you
When I hit rock bottom babe
I had you
When I thought I’d been forgotten babe
I had you
When I faced all my fears
I had you
When I thought nobody cared
I had you
And that’s why

Whatever you want from me
You know you got it
Whatever you need baby
You’re gonna get it
You got me forever
You got me forever

Listen,
In so many ways baby
You’ve helped me, to grow
There are so many things love
You’ve helped me to know
If we did it all again baby
I’d choose you
Cause there is no end
We’re never through
And that’s why

Whatever you want from me
You know you got it
Whatever you need baby
You’re gonna get it
You got me forever
You got me forever

I can feel you in my soul
Your love it always shows
I can feel you in my heart
You’ll never let me down
Together we’ll grow up
Higher and higher
This lifetime is not the first lifetime
This lifetime is not the last lifetime
I’ll never let you down
This is a real love
A true love
And that’s why

Whatever you want from me
You know you got it
Whatever you need baby
You’re gonna get it
You got me forever
You got me forever

Whatever you want from me
You know you got it
Whatever you need baby
You’re gonna get it
You got me forever
You got me forever

Written by Michelle Sanders, Jim Stewart • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management US, LLC

Is Love Real?

Lovers,

I know that I have been quiet for a while. This year has started off with a blast. It’s buzzing with newness. I haven’t been faithful to you. So I owe you all some good words on loving.

I want to talk about the unspoken language of love. Some believe that love announces itself loudly or boastfully but in reality she is quiet and demure. Always a lady and ready to serve her beloved.

Okay I know I am being poetic but that is not my intention right now. The unspoken language of love is not about what we say to each other to express our love. It’s more about the heart and spirit connection. My favorite movie is “The Notebook” and yes I have mentioned it before. I don’t just love it because it’s a mushy love story. But the main reason is that is displays the power of unspoken love.

The couple in the movie stayed connected despite the fact that her mind did not know him anymore. Her heart and spirit was naturally drawn to him. I always believed this concept to be true, that your heart and spirit would know the one your heart yearns to be with.

The only thing is that I have only seen it in the movies and never knew anyone who had experienced a love like this. Well that ended last week. I had a conversation with a mature female associate who shared her experience with her late husband, who had Alzheimer’s. She told me that one day he came home and didn’t know who she was anymore, yet he stayed with her daily and allowed her to take care of him. I asked her why?

She stated that he stayed because he knew her spirit. In “The Notebook” that is also why Allie responded to Noah although her mind didn’t know him. Yet she allowed him to read to her and spend time with her.

She stated that she had a moment when he came back to her for a few moments, he called her name several times. Then he was gone just as quickly. Just like in “The Notebook.” Only her husband died peacefully alone at their home.

But I have never heard anyone be so joyful after being widowed. As she celebrated the grandness of her marriage, she never doubted his love for her, even after he has been gone for over three years. She also said that their strength was in their shared love for God, so the spiritual really connected them deeper. It warmed my heart to hear her story and to know that loving this way was real.

I sat in my car wondering why God had allowed me to hear this story. What did he want me to glean from her story. The joy of loving and being loved. That even hard times, illness, and death cannot diminish it especially when God is at the core. I felt blessed and honored. But I also realized that joy comes with its own ups and downs. But she never said one thing about the downs.

Her heart rejoiced from the joy they brought into each other’s life. Up until this conversation I had only heard horror stories of marriages including those in my family. But I always knew there was another side, a good, and loving side. I knew for sure that someone has been successfully and fully loved.

I guess I needed this because I just turned 50 and it has taken too many years for me to experience or witness this love. But today my heart is full of joy to as I experience the quiet, demure love that God has confirmed is real.

Fedora Loves You. Peace

Fedora