I don’t know if you can ever say that you are 100% sure someone loves you. But I can say that today because it is unmistakable. I am sure he loves me but why did it take me so long to accept it? I totally surrendered to my heart. Something I spent most of my adulthood trying to avoid. I am 51 years old and I just met the man of my dreams three years ago.
He really is the man of my dreams! My dreams were distorted early on in my life, when I was led to believe that I didn’t need a man. I learned that is not true. I was created to have a covering and to belong to another. I was not meant to be single. When I face this woman in the mirror today I acknowledge that love is her smoking gun. Giving and receiving love is what makes me come to life.
He really is the man I dreamt of way back in my innocent years before I knew many men. How do I know? Because he is my mirror image. I see myself in his eyes. The innocent part in his heart that still exist in mine. That’s where we connect. That place within me that only exists for one other being, God. In my heart, in my soul.
I wasted so much time being scared to open and scared to live. But now I welcome it. I can’t wait to see what comes next. I find myself excited although I don’t know the path. I am closer to God more now than ever. Ironically at the same time I have opened my heart to receive his love. So, for those who think the man of my dreams is perfect, no he’s not. But he is true and peaceful. A graceful place to lay my head and rest. Assuredly, I welcome his love completely.
Fedora Loves You, Peace.
Unfortunately, I don’t have fond memories of love in my life. The majority of people who said they loved me, also hurt me. Therefore, I grew up with a distorted view of love.
As a young woman I realized that men gave me attention because of my physical appearance and somewhere in my head equated that to finding love. Little did I know they were only seeking their own lustful desires. I am glad that I now know the difference and no longer seek love through sex.
But I still struggle with receiving love. When I first started my healing journey, I had to learn about loving myself first. Only through self-love would I be able to receive love from others. I had not realized that somewhere along my painful journey I believed I was unlovable.
Thank God for healing, as I no longer feel this way. I love myself and give love to others freely. But I still struggle with receiving love. I actually struggle with recognizing love as well. This is something that I have been working on in my Spiritual walk.
God mimics love for us in how he cares for us. Love is not a word that is said but rather something that is done. There have been numerous occasions where God has revealed the actions of love bestowed upon me by others that I had missed.
This is what I have learned:
- People who love you stay connected to you. They may not be in your life everyday but they are always there if you need them. They show you that through their actions.
- People who love you may not always say how much they love you. But they may sing your praises to others.
- People who love you will give of themselves to help you when you are in need. It’s like they are compelled to do so because they cannot stand to see you suffer.
- People who love you encourage you to be your best. They don’t pretend like they don’t see your shortcomings, they love all of you, even the shortcomings.
- People who love you will protect you. While you may get hurt in any relationship, a person who loves you seeks to protect the beloved from harm and danger. Like a mother shields her young.
This is not intended to be an exhaustive list of how love is displayed but it is a glimpse into being able to recognize love in your life. I have spent too many years running away from those who love me due to my own fears. So as I recognize some of these acts of love in my life and relationships I am moving toward them now instead of away.
Yes, I want to know how much he really loves me, so I am paying attention and embracing all that God has for me in the second half of my life.
Fedora Loves You. Peace!
Lover’s I realize that I am in a healing space right now. Someone has hurt me deeply to the core of my being and I must forgive them. It has been hard because the people who hurt me are people I love.
I must forgive so that I can move on but I do not forget. Nor do I allow those people back into my life so easily. They have to earn a place in my life. They have to earn my trust, loyalty, love again. It will not be freely given.
Should they choose not to return, that is just fine. I have made peace with all of them. I have found my safe place and have managed just fine without them. Yes I miss them sometimes but being alone is worth the peace I have gained.
To those who are still selfishly hurting others. Take a minute and consider your own pain. Imagine someone digging a weapon in your open wound and how unbearable it would be emotionally. That’s what you are doing to the people you are using, lying to, cheating, betraying, all for your own selfish gain. Realize that your pain will stop when you stop causing pain to others.
Fedora Loves You. Peace!