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Fear of Love

I love you in a way
That makes me so vulnerable
I feel too much
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to stop it

I want to walk away
Forget you
But my heart
Won’t allow it
Even when I am not angry anymore
I still want to love you

I have to confess
I am so scared of us
Scared to love you
Scared not to love you

The whirlwind of love
Drives me crazy
Makes me want to escape
This emotional war
Raging in my heart

So I turn to the
Heat of the place
Which takes me away
Despite the fact
They never satisfy my ways

But I know that he
Loves many
So differently
In the same ways
That make
Them want to stay

Another thing
That makes me crash
Close my heart
Pray it never starts
To love another again

Our future
Flashes before me
Smiling I see
You loving me

But the world
Shines its light
On our differences
Making me fly
For fear that love
Will make me disappear

I close my heart
My voice
My words away
Hiding my truth

That my biggest fear is
Spending the rest of my life
Without your love
After waiting
So long to find you

Picture by Blacky91

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Sam Smith – Lay Me Down (Live)

I was introduced to this soul today. The voice, the depth of his words, they touch you in a way that makes you pay attention. Not many artists like him exist today. Their music is them and they are their music, you can tell in how they perform a song, because it’s not just a performance. Lovers, enjoy him as I have!

Fedora loves you! Peace



Yes I do, I believe
That one day I will be, where I was
Right there, right next to you
And it’s hard, the days just seem so dark
The moon, the stars, are nothing without you
Your touch, your skin, where do I begin?
No words can explain, the way I’m missing you
The night, this emptiness, this hole that I’m inside
These tears, they tell their own story

You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling’s overwhelming, they’re much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you’re alright
I’ll take care of you,
And I don’t want to be here if I can’t be with you tonight

I’m reaching out to you
Can you hear my call? (Who’s to say you won’t hear me?)
This hurt that I’ve been through
I’m missing you, missing you like crazy

You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling’s overwhelming, they’re much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you’re alright
I’ll take care of you
And I don’t wanna be here if I can’t be with you tonight

Lay me down tonight, lay me by your side
Lay me down tonight, lay me by your side
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you-ou
And make sure you’re alright
I’ll take care of you
And I don’t wanna be here if I can’t be with you tonight

Written by Sam Smith, James Napier, Elvin Smith • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group

Don’t Want You Back by Leela James

Two o’clock in the morning, you on my phone
Trying talk to me and saying that you want me back
You need me back, and you say you never left me
There you go, talking that shit, same old shit
Don’t wanna hear that shit, no
I remember when you had me, you treated me bad
You treated me bad
You had a good thing, you had a good thing
Yeah
And you let it go (you let it go)
And now you trying come back
But no, no no no
I will never take you back, no, no no no no
It’s funny how you trying come back
No, ha ha
It’s too late, I’ve moved on
And I don’t want you back
(I don’t want your love
I don’t need your love)

I don’t want your love, you can keep your love
‘Cause someone else is living here, someone else is saying my name
Baby, he’s cooking me breakfast, winning, dinning, flowers for no reason
He’s doing what he’s supposed to do, uuh
It could’ve been you
You had a good thing, you had a good thing
Yeah
And you let it go (you let it go)
And now you trying come back
But no, no no no
I will never take you back, no, no no no no
It’s funny how you trying come back
No, ha ha
But you did me wrong
It’s too late, I’ve moved on
And I don’t want you back

I was so good to you,
I was so good to you
But it wasn’t enough, and I’m through with you, through with you, through with you
Ooh, you didn’t appreciate me
Funny how you do now, but it’s too late
It’s too late, I’ve moved on
And I don’t want you back
No, no, no, no
(I’ll never take you back, no no no
I’ll never take you back, no no no)
And now you trying come back
But no, no no no
I will never take you back, no, no no no no
It’s funny how you trying come back to me
It’s too late, I’ve moved on
And I don’t want you back
(You did me wrong, you did me wrong)

And if I Had by Teddy Pendergrass

And if I had someone to love me
And if I had someone who really cared
I would be the best lover that they ever had
Cause I need somebody to love me, love back (yes I do)
(hey hey hey)

And if I had one sunny day
And if I had someone to chase my blues away
I would be,
I would be the luckiest man
In the whole wide world…

Cause I need somebody to love me,
love me back
See I need to lose
I need to lose this empty feeling
(this empty feeling)
Someone to stop I need somebody to stop to stop these endless nights
I need some to love (would hold me) and hold real tight (would hold me)
Somebody to love me (would you me would you hold me hold me hold me) heeeeyyy
Somebody just to love me
If I only had if I only had someone that uh
I need I need

Somebody (just to hold my hand)
somebody
somebody
to say that you
Say that you
Say that you understand

IIIIIIII
I need I need
Somebody to love me, love me, love me

 

Hear My Call – Jill Scott

She pulled this directly from the depths of my heart and spirit. Never has a song so accurately described this state that I currently exist in. So I had to give you the words written directly from her heart and spirit.  

–Fedora

 

“Hear my Call” by Jill Scott

Here I am again asking questions,
Waiting to be moved.
I am so unsure of my perception,
What I thought I knew I don’t seem to
Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?
Back to the old me and

God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, please.

I am such a fool
How did I get here?
Played by all the rules
Then they changed
I am but a child to your vision
Standing in the cold and the rain
Lost here in the dark
I can’t see my foot to take a step,
What is happening?
Oh, this hurts so bad. I can hardly breathe.
I just want to leave so…

God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please,
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, oh, please, please.

God please hear my call.
I am afraid.
Love has turned me cold,
I need your healing.
Please, please, please, please, please, please.