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Man’s Rebirth

The rose bloomed
His petals glowed
Brightly in the
Sun’s reflection

They did not wilt
For he is stronger
Able to withstand
The constant heat

His stem is firm
No longer chaffed
By the elements
He has learned
To adapt
To the concrete

Learned to use it
As his platform
To reach
His destiny

He realizes that
Soon he will
Never have to look
At that pale lifeless stone
Ever again

The rain comes
Washes down on him
Makes his petals heavy
He maintains
Keeps his stature

He knows his destiny
He knows his path
He knows his worth
He knows his source

He has evolved
From the droopy
Flower losing his
Life to the elements
Of his world

To a full blown
Beauty
With strong color
Sweet scent
Healthy stem
Able to protect
His beauty from
The elements

Watch him grow
Watch him produce
Ready and ripe
For picking because
He is that
Rose that grew
From the concrete

Happiness – At this point in my life

At this point in my life by Fedora
by #bossbabe from Pinterest

Happiness is not something that many people believe is achievable. But the big question is what is happiness and what does it take to obtain it? For many years I believed that being happy meant having all the things that I wanted, like money, my own home, a good paying job, a husband, children, etc. But I had all of these things and still was not happy. So what exactly makes me happy?

As it turns out for me its peace. I have lived a life full of chaos. Chaos at home, at school, in the neighborhood I grew up in, and then in my marriage. I worked really hard to remove myself from as much of the chaos as I could. Realizing that I will never be totally free of it. But first and foremost I am at peace with myself. I realized that I was miserable in my marriage because I was miserable within myself. I did not like myself and was not at peace internally.

I spent many years working on me. I call it my selfish phase. Every decision I made and thing I pursued was for my personal gratification. Now I did not neglect the needs of my family. No, but how I spent my time and what I gave me energy to aside from my family obligations changed. It became all about my desires. What was so liberating about this was that it was quite the opposite of what I had done my entire life. I was always the one who sacrificed for others and always put myself on the back burner. But after coming out a miserable existence for over 20 of my adult years I made a serious change.

The end result of that was about my liberation and the acknowledgement of my peace. I truly love myself just as I am. I am not perfect. I am not a religious person. I love God but I don’t do everything I am supposed to do. I live my life to the best of my ability. I will never be sin free. It’s a fact! We were born sinners. But I do strive to be the best person I can. So I made some decisions in this process. Some that many may not agree with, especially some in the Christian community.

I took control of my sexuality. For years I was made to feel bad because of my desires. Because I have never been a traditional woman yet I tried to do the traditional things. I love men and I love sex. So I had to come to grips with what that really meant for me. Do I get another husband so that I can have “legal” sex knowing full well I run the risk of another failed relationship, one that is hell to get out of? Or do I make a decision to have an adult relationship that involves sex without marriage. This was not an easy decision because it meant going against what I was taught.

I was celibate by choice for over five years. I loved the process because I learned how to control my sexual desires. I learned about my body and how I relate to men. I learned about ways to be satisfied without intercourse. I learned how men view us a sexual beings and how much more precious intimacy is than sex. I learned the power of purity. But I also learned that I am a sexual being and that I thrive when I am in a true intimate relationship with someone I really care about and who cares about me.

I also learned that I may not be cut out for the commitment thing because I still cringe at the thought of being with someone on a daily basis. I actually appreciate being able to go home or them being able to go home. I may not be this way forever. But this is where I am right now. This is my reality and ironically this is part of what makes me happy.

I am writing, I am loving, I am working, and my kids are healthy. I am working towards some solid life goals that will come into existence this year. Individually I am in my sweet spot. Oh what a place to be and a great starting point for a committed relationship. People don’t realize that self-actualization is crucial to being a productive part of a committed relationship. Two broken people will not produce a solid whole committed relationship. They will produce a puzzle that each tries to make themselves fit into and every time they realize that the pieces don’t fit they end up in chaos, misery and unhappy.

Another person cannot make you happy If you are not happy internally, with yourself and your life in general. They can enhance your existing happiness and make it much sweeter. So stop trying to make that puzzle piece fit into your story to produce your happily ever after. Your happily ever after starts and ends with you. Invest in you first, find out who you are and what really makes you happy. Then you will attract everything else you need to complete your picture, just like a magnet. You will become contagious.

Man’s Beauty

He is that rose
That grew
From the concrete
In him lies
The redemption
Of men to rise above
Sin, circumstance, failure
To choose to be
What God has called
Him to be

Not forced
Not coerced
Not manipulated
The mission is to
Be set free from
His past so that
He can begin
Walking in his destiny

Perfection You Are by The Black Poe

They say to color
A thought
Is to fill
One’s mind with
The most vivid
Of thoughts and
Imaginative wonders

Normally a definition
In which I would agree
But when
My mind thinks
Of you my darling

It often becomes
A clear white surface
Akin to the canvas
Of a master artist
Begging to be painted

For you see
God has yet to
Create another
Vision of beauty
As He created in you
Perfection you are