Just Some of My Thoughts... Fedora Loves Poetry 2018

Now I am Found…

Now I am Found... by Fedora

Now I am found. Found in what. What has found me. I have found patience, faith, and determination in love. This is not my first time loving a man. But it is my first time deciding to stand and make this love work in our lives. Myles Munroe said that “love is not the foundation of marriage, you need knowledge and understanding.” The love comes easy. Often quickly but love alone cannot sustain the relationship.

This time I allowing to slow me down in the building of this love and commitment. I have learned that there are many forces opposed to love. Things or people destined to destroy the love relationship are in abundance. But finding support in successfully standing in your love relationship are scarce.

Recently I have seen several love relationships meltdown right in front of me. They shared common denominators, anger, pain, confusion, and ignorance. Yes, ignorance. People do not know how to understand each other enough to really love and support the person not their feelings.

Patience, willing spirit, and listening will tell you all you need to know. Even what’s wrong. Sometimes we turn a deaf ear to what’s wrong. This keeps us waiting longer because we cannot build with another when we are not whole ourselves. I know this because I lived this.

I told you that last time. I am confidently lost. I know who I am and I am confidently stumbling through my new path with a smile on my face and love in my heart. I am a whole woman who loves a broken man. He desires wholeness and is currently seeking it but it requires patience and understanding on my part.

Obtaining wholeness takes sacrifice, time, and perseverance. To become whole you first must sacrifice what you believe to be true and face your real truth. Acknowledge your shortcomings, face those painful moments, and who you have allowed yourself to become as a result of the pain. Then allow yourself time to heal. Healing means dealing with the pain. No more running. Let the tears fall. Say what you need to say. Then stand your ground on your new path. Don’t allow others to steal your newfound joy and love.

I am now in my period of standing. God has amazed me this year. Everywhere I turn He is there showing me how well I am loved. Abundance and favor has reigned on me since the new year began. I eagerly anticipate what the rest of this year will produce. I have taken ownership of my life and my path. I know what I deserve and will not accept anything less than that in any area of my life.

Everything happens when it’s supposed to happen. I am living that in my life right now, as I watch things that were promised years ago manifest before my eyes with no delay. It is amazing, scary, and fulfilling at the same time. But there is no other place I would rather be.

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